How and when do people become romantically intimate with one another? I really don’t understand romance. I’ve engaged in romantic interactions with individuals I’ve had feelings for in the past. But I’ve never established any sort of committed relationship with anyone.
I admit, I’m terrified of becoming sexually intimate with someone I’m emotionally intimate with already. When I’m in the situation, it feels like I’m suffocating. There’s something wrong, and I can’t quite put my finger on what it is.
But sex does not a committed romantic relationship make, right?
I’ve watched sexual tension build to a breaking point in my friendships in the past. I’ve watched the intensity of a friendship build to a point where hugs and kisses weren’t enough to express how we felt for each other.
I’ve no idea how romance fits into a healthy sexuality. I’ve only just figured out how to have the kind sex that I want to have. I still can’t imagine having that sex with someone I actually have feelings for.
I have a difficult time seeing a person willing to put in the effort it’ll take to push themselves into my life, and vice versa. I think I’m realizing that I’m not good at relieving tension (particularly in relationships).