So this piece is mainly about how I last reacted to falling in love. I had a difficult time believing I had something valuable to give to this person. Once I fell [head over heels] in love, needing them made me feel unsafe. What right do I have to ask anyone to put so much time and energy into their relationship with me? I find myself nonplussed with intimate relationships and my sense of self (clearly), which is why I write this blog. Whatever happens, I don’t ever want to give up…even if I push certain people away in the process. I just hope I don’t regret not being able to open myself up more fully to people when I’m old and grey.