This creates a tension, a consequence of my constant growth. My answer to this tension between my gender & sexuality is genderqueer. I am “queering” my gender.
A cup of sugar is a cup of sugar, right? But from one moment to the next, the temperature and humidity in the room changes the quantity and/or quality of it. Though surely, in a single moment, a cup of sugar is a cup of sugar.
Yet what defines a moment: one month, one day, one second, one tenth of a second? In what moment shall we choose to identify that cup of sugar? After all, the moment we choose impacts what that cup of sugar is.
I am queer; I see my sexuality as never wholly straight or gay. I am genderqueer; my gender is never purely feminine or masculine. I am a hodgepodge not only of masculine and feminine qualities, but also of homo & hetero sexual ones.
Resolving that tension is a part of my life. This is my genderqueer identity. This is how my gender & sexuality coalesce. Through constant growth as I expose my eclectic sense of self to the world.